Shyyan.Gan™

宫

2012-02-10T11:35:00.002+08:00

最近看完宫锁珠帘 - 宫锁心玉的续集
还蛮喜欢它的片尾曲《佛说》
是由里头饰演四爷-雍正，的何晟铭演唱的

五百次回眸只为你经过
岁月的蹉跎让爱犯了错
即使化身石桥等你来走过
我的心事你会不会听我说

你的微笑是我永远的魔
你的承诺在我心中执着
即使在菩提下涅盘成佛
回首前尘又怕锦书难托

佛说多多多一生情太多
爱恨来回拖愁眉又紧锁
佛说过过过一生快走过
为爱惹的祸烧成一团火
佛说错错错太多的过错
全部都怨我就此忘了我
佛说莫莫莫莫要再情多
让思念沉默心莲一朵朵

还记得上一回看宫锁心玉
也喜欢上那首片尾曲《见或不见》
也是何晟铭演唱的

你见或者不见我
我就在那里不悲不喜
你念或者不念我
情就在那里不来不去
你爱或者不爱我
爱就在那里不增不减
你跟或者不跟我
我的手在你手里不舍不弃
来我怀里
或让我住进你的心里
默然相爱寂静喜欢
你爱或者不爱我
爱就在那里不增不减
你跟或者不跟我
我的手在你手里不舍不弃
来我怀里
或让我住进你的心里
默然相爱寂静喜欢
默然相爱寂静喜欢

BTT Booked!

2012-02-07T22:32:00.008+08:00

在妈咪的催促下
我终于当机立断
等了大约一个小时的队
报了 Basic Theory

3rd April 6.45pm
Theory Test Level 2
Classroom 2

2011-12-19T23:08:00.000+08:00

Results releasing tml!!!

凯尔西气质类型测试结果

2011-12-19T13:14:00.003+08:00

你的类型是：策划者-INTJ

所有的NT型人都擅长战略策划，但是，仅从制定应急预案或者说“伴随性管理”的角度来说，策划者（INTJ型人）的能力显然远胜于其他人。应急预案中包含假定条款，而它们的作用就是帮助我们处理各种可以被预测的操作性错误以及人员和物资短缺的情况。在任何一个复杂项目的运行过程当中——从策划整个家庭的欧洲假期，到为一场战争做准备，如“二战”——各种偶然事件和紧急状况都有可能会发生。这种复杂的操作往往是由许多不同的环节或步骤所组成的，而每个步骤都必须与其他步骤环环相扣；与此同时，每个环节或步骤也都有可能会出现无法预计的问题。策划者则恰恰能够把握住每个环节的连接方式，并且提前准备好解决方案以应对各种可能出现的难题。对于正在执行的某项工作，INTJ型人的脑海里总是牢记着计划A的每一个步骤。不过，与此同时，他们也会做好准备，只要有需要，他们可以随时执行计划B，或者方案C，甚至方案D。

通常来说，他们更擅长从事系统工作。在个人定位上，他们注重实效，多疑，喜欢用相对的眼光来看待事物；在空间定位上，他们采用的是交叉点式的方法；而面对时间，他们则更愿意停留在自己脑海中的“时间间隔”当中。聪明才智、自治以及坚毅的决心是构建他们自我形象的三大要素。生性冷静的他们信赖理智，渴望获得成就，珍视他人对自己的敬重和赞赏。他们追逐知识，并且将成为科技奇才作为自己的奋斗目标。在智能方面，他们的战略规划能力明显高于交际和战术能力，而后勤技巧则是他们的软肋。由于生来便善于规划，且有一颗坚毅的决心，因此，相对于制造者这一强调探索能力的资讯性角色而言，他们往往更倾向于指导性的协调者角色。而面对指挥者和策划者这两种协调性角色，较为矜持的他们显然更适合后者。

INTJ型人认为，秩序并非一成不变的，任何具体的顺序都存在改进的空间。所以，在他们看来，那些基于学历、证明、职务或知名度而产生的所谓的权威人士并没有任何特殊之处；同样的，那些风靡一时的口号或标语通常也很难引起他们的注意。他们之所以会采纳他人的观点，原因只有一个，因为它们能够起作用。换句话说，只有当这些观点能够有效地实现其明确的目标时，他们才会接受。他们只接受那些对他们而言有意义的观点，不然，无论提出观点的人是谁，他们都一律置若罔闻。

策划者认为，在一个运作良好的组织当中，其外在形式和内在结构都务必确保连贯一致，一旦他们发现系统中出现问题——功能叠加、重复劳作、书面计划失效，以及人力和物力资源浪费，策划者便会毫不犹豫地对系统操作进行重组，同时再度捡起那几乎被人遗忘的既定目标。不要忘记，在发布每一道命令之前，精打细算的他们通常都会首先进行成本核算。

了解INTJ型人的情感的确是一件非常困难的事情，因为无论是男性还是女性，这种类型的人都不喜欢交际，并且很少会在他人面前表露自己的情感；相反，他们渴望独处，不受人干扰。此外，除了少数几个自己所选择的对象，他们并不喜欢与他人有过多的接触。不过，这并不代表策划者就没有感情，事实上，他们十分多情，甚至不乏浪漫情愫。一旦他们决定与某人共度一生，他们就会成为对方深情而忠实的伴侣。而面对爱人所发出的拒绝的信号，他们也往往会显得极其敏感。

http://types.yuzeli.com/survey/keirsey/

FPA乐嘉性格色彩测试结果

2011-12-19T00:44:00.007+08:00

结果是：蓝+黄

FPA® 性格色彩测试的说明

本测试可以领取属于你的性格色彩，同时也可知道自己大概的组合。例如，你在红色上的总数是25，毫无疑问，你是标准的红色性格；又比如，你在黄色是15，红色是11，其他各为2，你将是黄+红的性格。
　　
总分中数目最大的字母，是你的核心性格，也就是你的天性中最重要的“动机”的性格。其他字母内的分数代表你整个性格中组合的整体比例。你的核心性格主色只有一种，不同的性格主色产生一个最重要的“动机”，而你的性格可能是一种，也有可能是两种的组合。
　　
本测试题目旨在测试你的“性格”而非你的“个性”，测试你的“先天”而非你的“后天”。但仍会有一部分读者很难判断自身的先天力量和后天影响是如何交互作用的。如果你在做题过程中，严格符合测试说明，你将了解自己性格本源的力量，可以让你更加清晰地确认“我到底是谁”“我为何会成为现在这个样子”“我身上的哪些特质是与生俱来的”“我的哪些特点又是后天修炼的”。整体上你测试出来的结果最有可能的是以下12种情况：

•典型红色性格　　　 •典型黄色性格
•典型蓝色性格　　　 •典型绿色性格
•红+黄　　　　　　　•红+绿
•蓝+黄　　　　　　　•蓝+绿
•黄+红　　　　　　　•黄+蓝
•绿+红　　　　　　　•绿+蓝

在FPA®性格色彩的组合中，只有上下关系和左右关系的八种组合，没有对角线的组合。
在性格组合当中，同样的色彩搭配因为主色和次色的顺序不同，会形成整体风格接近但具体行为有诸多细分的差异，诸如红+黄与黄+红，两类性格皆属于“红黄配”，但前者因为主色是红色，因此比后者更加注重人生的“快乐和自由”；而后者因为主色是黄色，因此比前者更加注重人生的“成就和控制”。

【红色】
你精力充沛，感情丰富,活泼热情, 乐观积极,信任他人，表达力强，是带来快乐的人。有些粗心大意，不受规则束缚，喜欢表现自己，非常乐于接受变革，甚至作为变革的支持和鼓吹者。你的情绪变化直接与别人的认同有关。
代表人物：老顽童周伯通，猪八戒

【蓝色】
你是个人主义者，追求精确严谨，遇事细斟慢酌，但隐而不发，深藏若虚。避免和反感与那些缺乏理性、反复无常或过于直率的人相处。反复思考衡量避免失败，有时会显得忧虑重重。
代表人物：诸葛亮，林黛玉

【黄色】
你有很强烈的意愿成为人中之杰，不知疲倦地去追求自己的梦想和利益是你的快乐之源，一旦如愿以偿，又会很快瞄准新的目标，能够快速发现问题所在并采取行动，不喜欢等待。你喜欢迎接新的挑战，想当征服者。
代表人物：哪吒，张三丰

【绿色】
你很容易接近，喜欢与人们友好相处，性情温和，谦逊识体，最担心由于意外的变革或个人纷争而破坏安安稳稳的生活。你更多的时候是按规矩办事，不求变化，不喜欢压力，在压力之下会变得柔弱退缩。
代表人物：郭靖，阿甘

http://types.yuzeli.com/survey/fpa30/

2011-12-14T22:43:00.002+08:00

How come have to make my life so difficult?
i jus wan a job. BUT
I just cant tink of any personality referal...
y die die need at least 2...
i dun like to ask for help...
and i hate it...
n nw im forced to do it...
haix...
HAIX

Over

2011-12-02T20:04:00.000+08:00

Finally it's over
Last paper is over!

Gone Case

2011-11-17T01:42:00.003+08:00

I'm done for this semester...
die and dead
all module under mean...
n it's a lot under mean...
have to admit networking is a lot difficult than OS
Haix
hate it
hate IS2102 as well
too competitive
really too too competitive
hate the education system as well...
dun release solution,
wad facilitate learning,
wad independent learning,
all crap
i learn nothing tis sem...
im done n
am gone... HAIX
~ posted by an irritated and not-to-be-disturbed me

Leadership Style

2011-11-09T00:49:00.000+08:00

Your results indicate that your leadership style is predominately: Participative

Participative Leadership

Participative leaders accept input from one or more group members when making decisions and solving problems, but the leader retains the final say when choices are made. Group members tend to be encouraged and motivated by this style of leadership. This style of leadership often leads to more effective and accurate decisions, since no leader can be an expert in all areas. Input from group members with specialized knowledge and expertise creates a more complete basis for decision-making.

Lewin’s study found that participative leadership, also known as democratic leadership, is generally the most effective leadership style. Democratic leaders offer guidance to group members, but they also participate in the group and allow input from other group members. In Lewin’s study, children in this group were less productive than the members of the authoritarian group, but their contributions were of a much higher quality.

Participative leaders encourage group members to participate, but retain the final say over the decision-making process. Group members feel engaged in the process and are more motivated and creative.

http://psychology.about.com/library/quiz/bl-leadershipquizb.htm

Do you believe in end of the world?

2011-11-04T11:25:00.003+08:00

A punishment or a test? A test I tink...

2011-10-27T20:53:00.002+08:00

yes, im sad
but i have no time for it
isolate for abt 1 week
but i haven been sad for the past days
was superb pack with work

IS3223 Presentation - over
MKT1003 Presentation - over
IS3223 Beer Game Report
IS3223 Final Report
MKT1003 Individual Assignment
MKT1003 Group Report - problematic
IS2102 Individual Assignment 2 - haven touch
CS2105 Programming Assignment
CS2105 Assignment 4 - releasing soon

Haix.. i want time and i need time

Finally, to all my friends, thks for the concern
i appreciate it
am feeling better
but i'll still be in isolation to concentrate on my wrk
ya

2011-10-21T20:39:00.002+08:00

Sad, I failed my CS2105 mid term. Haix.
Not in mood to be disturbed...
Wanna be alone...
Isolation...

INTJ

2011-10-11T22:46:00.002+08:00

Introverted iNtuitive Thinking Judging

All Rationals are good at planning operations, but Masterminds are head and shoulders above all the rest in contingency planning. Complex operations involve many steps or stages, one following another in a necessary progression, and Masterminds are naturally able to grasp how each one leads to the next, and to prepare alternatives for difficulties that are likely to arise any step of the way. Trying to anticipate every contingency, Masterminds never set off on their current project without a Plan A firmly in mind, but they are always prepared to switch to Plan B or C or D if need be.

Masterminds are rare, comprising no more than one to two percent of the population, and they are rarely encountered outside their office, factory, school, or laboratory. Although they are highly capable leaders, Masterminds are not at all eager to take command, preferring to stay in the background until others demonstrate their inability to lead. Once they take charge, however, they are thoroughgoing pragmatists. Masterminds are certain that efficiency is indispensable in a well-run organization, and if they encounter inefficiency -- any waste of human and material resources -- they are quick to realign operations and reassign personnel. Masterminds do not feel bound by established rules and procedures, and traditional authority does not impress them, nor do slogans or catchwords. Only ideas that make sense to them are adopted; those that don't, aren't, no matter who thought of them. Remember, their aim is always maximum efficiency.

In their careers, Masterminds usually rise to positions of responsibility, for they work long and hard and are dedicated in their pursuit of goals, sparing neither their own time and effort nor that of their colleagues and employees. Problem-solving is highly stimulating to Masterminds, who love responding to tangled systems that require careful sorting out. Ordinarily, they verbalize the positive and avoid comments of a negative nature; they are more interested in moving an organization forward than dwelling on mistakes of the past.

Masterminds tend to be much more definite and self-confident than other Rationals, having usually developed a very strong will. Decisions come easily to them; in fact, they can hardly rest until they have things settled and decided. But before they decide anything, they must do the research. Masterminds are highly theoretical, but they insist on looking at all available data before they embrace an idea, and they are suspicious of any statement that is based on shoddy research, or that is not checked against reality.

INTJ by by Marina Margaret Heiss

To outsiders, INTJs may appear to project an aura of "definiteness", of self-confidence. This self-confidence, sometimes mistaken for simple arrogance by the less decisive, is actually of a very specific rather than a general nature; its source lies in the specialized knowledge systems that most INTJs start building at an early age. When it comes to their own areas of expertise -- and INTJs can have several -- they will be able to tell you almost immediately whether or not they can help you, and if so, how. INTJs know what they know, and perhaps still more importantly, they know what they don't know.

INTJs are perfectionists, with a seemingly endless capacity for improving upon anything that takes their interest. What prevents them from becoming chronically bogged down in this pursuit of perfection is the pragmatism so characteristic of the type: INTJs apply (often ruthlessly) the criterion "Does it work?" to everything from their own research efforts to the prevailing social norms. This in turn produces an unusual independence of mind, freeing the INTJ from the constraints of authority, convention, or sentiment for its own sake.

INTJs are known as the "Systems Builders" of the types, perhaps in part because they possess the unusual trait combination of imagination and reliability. Whatever system an INTJ happens to be working on is for them the equivalent of a moral cause to an INFJ; both perfectionism and disregard for authority may come into play, as INTJs can be unsparing of both themselves and the others on the project. Anyone considered to be "slacking," including superiors, will lose their respect -- and will generally be made aware of this; INTJs have also been known to take it upon themselves to implement critical decisions without consulting their supervisors or co-workers. On the other hand, they do tend to be scrupulous and even-handed about recognizing the individual contributions that have gone into a project, and have a gift for seizing opportunities which others might not even notice.

In the broadest terms, what INTJs "do" tends to be what they "know". Typical INTJ career choices are in the sciences and engineering, but they can be found wherever a combination of intellect and incisiveness are required (e.g., law, some areas of academia). INTJs can rise to management positions when they are willing to invest time in marketing their abilities as well as enhancing them, and (whether for the sake of ambition or the desire for privacy) many also find it useful to learn to simulate some degree of surface conformism in order to mask their inherent unconventionality.

Personal relationships, particularly romantic ones, can be the INTJ's Achilles heel. While they are capable of caring deeply for others (usually a select few), and are willing to spend a great deal of time and effort on a relationship, the knowledge and self-confidence that make them so successful in other areas can suddenly abandon or mislead them in interpersonal situations.

This happens in part because many INTJs do not readily grasp the social rituals; for instance, they tend to have little patience and less understanding of such things as small talk and flirtation (which most types consider half the fun of a relationship). To complicate matters, INTJs are usually extremely private people, and can often be naturally impassive as well, which makes them easy to misread and misunderstand. Perhaps the most fundamental problem, however, is that INTJs really want people to make sense. :-) This sometimes results in a peculiar naivete', paralleling that of many Fs -- only instead of expecting inexhaustible affection and empathy from a romantic relationship, the INTJ will expect inexhaustible reasonability and directness.

Probably the strongest INTJ assets in the interpersonal area are their intuitive abilities and their willingness to "work at" a relationship. Although as Ts they do not always have the kind of natural empathy that many Fs do, the Intuitive function can often act as a good substitute by synthesizing the probable meanings behind such things as tone of voice, turn of phrase, and facial expression. This ability can then be honed and directed by consistent, repeated efforts to understand and support those they care about, and those relationships which ultimately do become established with an INTJ tend to be characterized by their robustness, stability, and good communications.

Functional Analysis by Joe Butt

Introverted iNtuition
INTJs are idea people. Anything is possible; everything is negotiable. Whatever the outer circumstances, INTJs are ever perceiving inner pattern-forms and using real-world materials to operationalize them. Others may see what is and wonder why; INTJs see what might be and say "Why not?!" Paradoxes, antinomies, and other contradictory phenomena aptly express these intuitors' amusement at those whom they feel may be taking a particular view of reality too seriously. INTJs enjoy developing unique solutions to complex problems.

Extraverted Thinking
Thinking in this auxiliary role is a workhorse. Closure is the payoff for efforts expended. Evaluation begs diagnosis; product drives process. As they come to light, Thinking tends, protects, affirms and directs iNtuition's offspring, fully equipping them for fulfilling and useful lives. A faithful pedagogue, Thinking argues not so much on its own behalf, but in defense of its charges. And through this process these impressionable ideas take on the likeness of their master.

Introverted Feeling
Feeling has a modest inner room, two doors down from the Most Imminent iNtuition. It doesn't get out much, but lends its influence on behalf of causes which are Good and Worthy and Humane. We may catch a glimpse of it in the unspoken attitude of good will, or the gracious smile or nod. Some question the existence of Feeling in this type, yet its unseen balance to Thinking is a cardinal dimension in the full measure of the INTJ's soul.

Extraverted Sensing
Sensing serves with a good will, or not at all. As other inferior functions, it has only a rudimentary awareness of context, amount or degree. Thus INTJs sweat the details or, at times, omit them. "I've made up my mind, don't confuse me with the facts" could well have been said by an INTJ on a mission. Sensing's extraverted attitude is evident in this type's bent to savor sensations rather than to merely categorize them. Indiscretions of indulgence are likely an expression of the unconscious vengeance of the inferior.

Mood Test for Today

2011-10-11T22:30:00.001+08:00

Shall do this frequently if im not posting anything.

Today :
Your present is illustrated by clear-cut choices and great self demand which can extend to others as well. Do not forget to be a bit looser with yourself.

Your strongest point today :
You are currently showing a great energy and a strong determination to achieve your goals.
You are currently driven by your will to change things, as well by your capacity to lead others and make them react.
You can also rely on your natural energy, your desire to build and your ability to motivate others, as well as your creativity, intuition and imagination.

Your best quality as of today is :
Your ability to take matters into your own hands.
Today, your ability to be self determined seems to be among the highest 15%.
Your ongoing personal project is taking the major part of your time, as well as you are a leader and you know how to concentrate on your goals without harming others.
Your ability to make things move forward is mainly supported by your will to change things, and also by your capacity to lead others and make them react.

Your second best quality as of today is :
Your creativity and/or your spirituality.
Today, your creativity seems to be among the highest 25%.
Creativity is not the main motive behind your decision at the present time, Pourtant you truly possess great intuitive capacities which are very well present in your activities.
Your creativity is currently being supported by your constant quest for perfection, and also by your feeling of transformation and deep inner change .

A suggestion :
Don’t forget to indulge.
Set aside some free time in your agenda so you can relax.
Build a cosy environment for yourself.
Don't forget you are the most important person in the world and your emotions deserve to be respected.

What Suits Me???

2011-10-08T00:12:00.002+08:00

Few days of struggle with what career should I pursue and happens to stumble on this test. And here's my result. Haha, not bad, quite accurate, exactly my dream, but am i up for it?

Your iPersonic Type: The Independent Thinker
http://www.ipersonic.com/type/IT.html

Independent Thinkers are analytical and witty persons. They are normally self-confident and do not let themselves get worked up by conflicts and criticism. They are very much aware of their own strengths and have no doubts about their abilities. People of this personality type are often very successful in their career as they have both competence and purposefulness. Independent Thinkers are excellent strategists; logic, systematics and theoretical considerations are their world. They are eager for knowledge and always endeavour to expand and perfect their knowledge in any area which is interesting for them. Abstract thinking comes naturally to them; scientists and computer specialists are often of this type.

Independent Thinkers are specialists in their area. The development of their ideas and visions is important to them; they love being as flexible as possible and, ideally, of being able to work alone because they often find it a strain having to make their complex trains of thought understandable to other people. Independent Thinkers cannot stand routine. Once they consider an idea to be good it is difficult to make them give it up; they pursue the implementation of that idea obstinately and persistently, also in the face of external opposition.

As an Independent Thinker, you are one of the introverted personality types. That is one of the reasons you prefer to work alone. This does not mean that you cannot be successful in a team, as well. For you, the task is most important and people who are involved come second. The contact with others, the necessity to adjust yourself to their daily changing sensitivities - all of it is just more gratuitous emotion that keep you from totally devoting yourself to those things that truly interest you: analyzing systems and policies, researching potentials for change, developing new ideas and implementing them in reality.

Here you differ from the second introverted Thinker type, the Analytical Thinker: You truly enjoy implementing your concepts and you enjoy the results. Therefore you should look for a work environment where you can accompany and expedite your ideas through to their conclusion. You consider difficult situations as challenges that really try your creativity and you frequently surprise people around you with genuinely incredibly bright ideas, rendering others speechless with their excellence. Your world consists of statistics, legitimacy, and systematics.

Considering all of this, your Thinker type is very praxis-oriented, and by no means lives on an intellectual ivory tower. You are not interested in theories not related to reality. As in chess, you are excellent at predicting the consequences of your methods in advance, and then choosing the appropriate alternative. Once you have made your decision on how to deal with a situation, you are totally willing to use your elbows and you don’t necessarily show any consideration for others. With that, you occasionally encounter resistance from other, less task-oriented colleagues that you quickly brush aside.

You resent routine jobs or monotonic order of events. You believe that they smother your creativity. If necessary, your determination and unusual ambition will convince you to acquiesce to the inevitable. Nevertheless, when choosing your profession, you should be mindful that your working environment is going to provide you with something new to learn and that your tasks are as varied as possible. Your strength lies in solving novel problems and not working on details. Nor should your curiosity ever be satisfied; just as fresh information is as important to you as the air you breathe, so is the feeling that you continuously expand and increase your competencies. An activity where you do the same thing in the same department with the same colleagues for 20 years is the worst fate that can possibly happen to a hungry mind.

김상민 꿈이였으면

2011-10-05T19:08:00.003+08:00

내가 정말 그댈 사랑했었나봐요
가끔 이유없이도 흐르는 눈물
가슴아파 흘려요
아직 그댈 보내 드릴 용긴 없어요
지워야 될 기억속에서 하루를 살아가요

나 잊으려해도 잊으려 노력해봐도
이 아픔 비워 내기 위해 더 깊숙이 묻죠

다 꿈이였으면 아니 꿈이였어요
다시 깨어나면 사라질 그런 꿈이길 바랬죠
난 눈을 감아요 가끔 생각이 나면
그대 보일까 나 두려워
다시 눈감아 보내요 안녕

이젠 다시 그댈 볼 수없다고 했죠
지우고 또 지울 눈물로 그대를 그려봐요

나 잊으려해도 잊으려 노력해봐도
이 아픔 비워 내기 위해 더 깊숙이 묻죠

다 꿈이였으면 아니 꿈이였어요
다시 깨어나면 사라질 그런 꿈이길 바랬죠
난 눈을 감아요 가끔 생각이 나면
그대 보일까 나 두려워
다시 눈감아 보내요 안녕

더 담아보려고, 더 채우려해도
흩어진 이 눈물로 사라지네요

그대 떠나도 그댄 남아있어요.
왜 가슴 깊이남아서 나를 아프게 하나요.

다 꿈이였으면 아니 꿈이였어요
그런 꿈이길 바랬죠
난 눈을 감아요 다시 눈감아 보내요
꿈이였으면 꿈이였어요

I must have really loved you
Sometimes for no reason,
the tears come from the ache of my heart
I still don’t have the courage to accept you
I live day by day in the hell that I must forget

I want to forget
I try to forget
But I keep falling deeper into the painful abyss
Oh if only this was just a dream , no , this is a dream
And I can wake up from it.
That is what I hope
I close my eyes
When you come to my mind
I’m afraid I’ll see your face so I close my eyes and send you away

《当是梦想》金尚民
看来我真的爱过你
有时会毫无原因的流泪，心痛的流泪
我还是没有勇气忘记你
在应该抹去的记忆中过着每一天
就算我想忘记，努力去忘记
为了填补伤痛，只能把你埋得更深
如果都是梦，不，的确都是梦
多么希望醒来一切都只是梦
我闭上眼，偶尔回想从前
害怕看到你，我再次闭上眼，再见。

2011-09-29T12:14:00.000+08:00

改变所不能接受的，接受所不能改变的。

2011-09-13T23:18:00.003+08:00

感冒中，多有感触的我，今博了这一折...

2011-09-12T11:18:00.000+08:00

你让我想起了他...

HaPPy BiRthDayZ!!

2011-08-24T01:06:00.011+08:00

好久没有到 Facebook le..

直到今天 8月23日 check mail 时

有点吓了一跳

怎么通常被我sort到整整齐齐干干净净的 mail box

突然多了这么多 mail？！

Lolx

注意咯

绝不是我大惊小怪

我的 email 可是有很多folder 的

决定看看 Facebook

过后就想博一下

做个记录与纪念

谢谢大家的祝福！

更谢谢大家还记得我！

还有这是今年大姨表姐特地带来 4 seasons 的 D24 榴莲蛋糕 :)

突然就想起大哥二哥的巧克力蛋糕

嘿嘿

Lion King Von Leon Patch Arrived!!

2011-08-17T21:13:00.002+08:00

Von Leon Patch finally arrived! Im gonna create my guild and train my KOC to lvl120 for my ultimate adventurer!

Problems NVR END!

2011-08-16T22:21:00.001+08:00

First is bidding, nw is balloting...

Haix,

totally no mood to start school...

Jus FFG

2011-08-15T16:32:00.004+08:00

System up again.

Successfully filed for graduation ^^

2011-08-14T21:13:00.002+08:00

Dropped GEK1542 Forensic Science today.

this module costed me 1006 G pts.

LOLX.

Blogging here to commemorate this day and to say that I too have a thousand points in my G acc to bid for this popular module.

Oh My God! Missed FFG!!!

2011-08-14T00:56:00.003+08:00

How can it be??

I missed FFG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

The page showed "system was closed"

ahhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

What should I do?!

Emailed Mr Low.

But I haven even drop my extra module.

Haix,

sleepless nights becos of this idiotic bidding, balloting and ffg-ing...

Which mod shld I drop?

Which module shld I drop?

Which mod should I drop?

Which one!?

Have to made up my mind before Monday when Mr Low comes back.

Haix........

GEK1542? IS3223? IS2102?

2011-08-13T20:01:00.000+08:00

Went to the Career Fair at Suntec Convention Hall today.

Someone commented that 'Shyyan' was a unique and nice name =)

Too Much Points to SPARE!!

2011-08-12T15:42:00.000+08:00

This is a terrible final semester for me.

Never been in my NUS life to have such a tough and torturous bidding.

Only managed to get CS2105 from MPE.

Dropped my minor in Mathematics due to lecture clash with my CS2105 lecture (heart pain).

So 3 more UEs to take this sem with my super heavy killer CS2105.

Schedule for this sem's mod quite strange.

Either lecture clash else exam clash.

After a week's long of thinking and discussion with friends,

came out with the following options.

MKT1003X Marketing (for my interest, taking alone, haix)

GEK1542 Forensic Science (heard it is interesting, got 1997 pts in G acc anyway)

GEK2501 Understanding your Medications (only 2 hrs lec per week, nothing else!)

IS3223 IT and Supply Chain Management (seems to done well for lvl3/4000 mods)

IS2102 Requirements Analysis and Design (new mod, dp mod, alt tut, no participation)

GEK1046 Introduction to Cultural Studies (no presentation, 1 proj, 1 opened final)

GEM2000 Foundations of Real Estate Appraisal (backup, friends taking, calculations i like it!)

Due to last minute change of plan, as GEK1542 was too overwhelming, change to bid for MKT1003X, GEM2000 and GEK1542 (GEM2000 replaced GEK2501).

Result: MKT1003-1pt, GEK1542-1006pts, GEM2000-outbided

Last resort, bided for GEK1046 and got it for 945 G pts (Im the highest bid at 991).

Appealed for IS3223 and IS2102.

Got them eventually and i'm declared bankrupt for p acc.

BUT

Today I dropped GEK1046 Introduction to Cultural Studies which costed me 945 G pts.

Gonna drop another mod,

which one would it be?

人到底是怎么了？

2011-07-17T00:36:00.000+08:00

人

喜欢听自己的好话，讲别人的坏话。
喜欢听别人的坏话，讲自己的好话。
想说自己的好话，又怕被人笑话。
想说别人的坏话，又怕被人闲话。

PSA Visiting Trip

2011-02-24T21:22:00.003+08:00

Visited PSA today.
World's busiest transhipment hub.
Port's big.
Place's great.
People's nice.

2011-02-17T14:19:00.000+08:00

First phone interview with Bank of America Merrill Lynch...

2011-02-08T22:44:00.002+08:00

I quit my tuition job today...
Will be teaching until a new teacher is hired...

失落 = 失望 + 落魄

2011-01-28T23:52:00.002+08:00

有点闷闷的，
有点苦苦的，
有点酸酸的，
有点累累的，
这是失落吗？

2011-01-26T12:27:00.004+08:00

Ceez, I can't remember your face,
I only remembered you have blue eyes,
and wore a red tie and blue jeans.
I will use this blog post to remember you,
being the first interviewer of my life.
Thank you for shortlisting me for knowing who I really am.
Allowing me to have a big fish story....
Although I failed, I learn.

2011-01-21T20:20:00.000+08:00

First interview of my life with Credit Suisse...

2011-01-12T17:11:00.004+08:00

今天是新学期的第二天。。。
是很无聊的一天。。。
不停下雨的一天。。。
7.5个小时的休息时间。。。
7.5个钟头的无所事事。。。
接下来的每个礼拜三都会是这样。。。
就是那么无聊的一天。。。
无聊的人
过着无聊的人生
耗着无聊的时间
在这无聊的地方
带着无聊的心情
做着无聊的事情
瞪着无聊的电脑
登上无聊的博客
博着无聊的字眼
等着无聊的课堂。。。
哈哈哈
我就是这么无聊的人。。。

2010-10-08T23:31:00.001+08:00

Can anyone tell me what sort of person am I?

2010-08-17T23:20:00.000+08:00

我不想像想他那样想你......

2010-08-08T22:03:00.000+08:00

School's starting SOON!!!

2010-05-20T18:58:00.002+08:00

I guess giving tuition may be my remedy to presentation phobia.
every session includes
1.5 hours of presenting my solutions and knowledge and tackling lots of weird Q&A
and at least three sessions a week
lol

Sec 3 Chemistry Tuition Offer

2010-05-19T18:24:00.003+08:00

ya sec 3 chemistry.
hmm. should i take up the offer.
tempting...

I must say, i really love chemistry among the 3 sciences i took.
but the passion came late during my jc2 days,
becos of my chemistry tutor who previously teaching at Anderson JC and now heard tt he's in NUS doing his masters or PHD and also a TA for Organic Chem.

should i take up the offer?
but it means i have to study one more subject.
nw it's still ok for me.
i still have a lot of extra time to study.
but what if school starts??
hmmm..

but being a tutor is quite fun.
though i dun look like a teacher anyway,
mainly bcos i hang ard with the students,
chat with them,
and i realize i cant be stern as it oppose my teaching philosophy,
but i did make sure they learn what i taught them by the end of the day.

i believe time have changed,
teacher shldnt be stern anymore with their wadever pride/respect thingy.
students shld be treated as friend.
we learn together.
only then the students are willing to share with u what they are tinking and ask u questions when they have any.
i can then better understand their needs and provide the necessary way of teaching.

tt's what i wished when i were student.
i dare to say,
if it's not my parents,
i would have quit sch long ago.
nothing interest me,
with the stupid cca instructor,
backstabbing friends,
those irresponsible teacher who can lost my report card and exam papers,
funny teachers who complain when u r talkative and also complain when u r quiet.
and those who like to force me to answer their qns when i dun feel like to,
no excuses, they can see it on my face saying 'i dun feel like answering',
else i will jus say 'i dunno' when im being forced

so i will go by my teachin way.
it's only when the kids feel comfortable with you,
they will like the subject,
develop passion for it,
and their learning been maximized.

i guess the only problem with me is i can do but i dunno hw to teach. lol
tt is wad im learning frm the kids.

Science Tuition Offer

2010-05-18T22:10:00.006+08:00

After the first P6 maths session last Friday,
I realized it's tedious.
Cos I have to use their way of solving questions,
and cant use my way which only require 1 step.

Today I took up the offer to teach P6 science on Tuesday and P5 Science on Wednesday.
Hmm.
Real busy nowadays.
Studying, studying and studying...
Tink im even more hardworking during school days.
lolx.

Though it's primary school work,
but it's also a fact that i haven touch this stuffs since 3 years ago or even earlier like since primary school days.
What's more is...
I dun really like science. (tt's y i chose to be in computing)
but it doesnt mean i hate it,
it's jus not my favorite tt's all.

That is y im studying and studying,
digging out all my old books.
and im determined to teach the kids well.
so i must be very well prepared.

First P6 science session just nw.
seem's ok.
went through a paper.
2 of the students from my P6 maths class.
1 from huixian's p6 chinese class.
other's i will try to rmb.

tink i can remember their names hahx.
Jennifer, Michelle, Xuan Yun, Sophia, Hardy, Ben Siang, Zamiel, Wai Kay, Cameron, Di Sheng

Mum trying Ajisen

2010-05-15T22:05:00.004+08:00

Brought mum to Ajisen today.
Mum first time to try Ajisen.
Huixian's and my treat.
We had Huixian's favorite Curry Pork Ramen and my favorite Ton Toro Ramen.
Comes with side dishes (white fish and chicken wing) and green tea.
Mum said it's nice but the serving was too big for a person. lol.

2010-05-15T00:10:00.002+08:00

我只做我想做的事。
我不喜欢被约束。
我说得到必定做得到。
我决定做好的事，只会做得更好。
我不喜欢重复我说的话。

我喜欢一个人的空间。

我不吃菜，不代表我喜欢吃肉。

千万别试着改变我，没有人能改变我，只有我自己。能改变我的人已不在。

An Eye Opener

2010-05-14T23:43:00.003+08:00

Perhaps I seldom go for tuition,
or izzit becos I didn't really went for a tuition at a tuition center except for once which after I went,
my results surprising drop drastically,
and when I quit,
my results just improve to top the class.
Today's experience as a tutor is truly an eye opening one.
From what I remember from past experience,
although not really quiet,
students still sit at their seats listening to the teacher.
When given work,
they will do their work and ask when there's problem.
However,
it seems like time have change.
It's totally different.
Students were super rowdy.
Extraordinary energetic.
Some walk around in class.
U will hear things like
"I go make a call"
or
"I go wash my hands"
or perhaps even
"I go buy pancake"
Hmmm...
I really have to tink of a way to tackle it. LOL
Really can't remember how I passed my primary school days.
Am I like them?
I dun tink so....

Was being told by xian
"They are kids, they dun jot down notes, they jus stare into blank spaces, they dun even keep their worksheets, PSLE is jus an exam that get the smartest students, OLevel to choose the most hardworking ones and ALevel to select those smart plus hardworking ones"
I will just keep tis in mind,
for the time being....

Hahx
Wad should I say?
Overall quite interesting.
A totally different experience.
I have learnt that
"Primary kids, Secondary students, JC youths, Uni adults."
"There's time for play and time for study."
"Dun always take things too seriously, it depends on situation."
"Should be more imaginative."
HAHA

Maths Tuition Offer

2010-05-13T21:23:00.005+08:00

Superb happy that I took up the offer to teach P6 maths
finally my family wun call me “吃软饭”
tt's what my nick for the past few day.
cos i have been slacking ard for like a week only lo.

lolx.
nw my whole family have become teachers except my dad la.
i also have to teach even though i dun like.
i rather teach than being called “吃软饭”

actually is nt tt i dun like to teach,
i jus dun like the title of teacher
anyway i dunno hw to teach
im still learning

but like wad i always say
it's my strength to excel wadever i set out to accomplish including those that i hate
taking science for 10 years will be an example
and im proud to say i manage to get into the pure science class

However, got a call from the peron in charge, asking me to take up JC H2 Mathematics and Primary 6 English too.
Hahx.
Rejected.
Cos I dunno if I have what it needs to be a teacher.
Didnt even tot of being a tutor once.
Wanted to try.
But not for such a high level.
I demand quality from my work.
I will only do things that I have confidence in.
要做就要做到最好。

Xian at Timbre

2010-05-12T23:59:00.003+08:00

Went timbre today with xian.
her first time there
and first time been to such hangout
and it's my treat
we reached ard 8.30pm
waited abt 35mins and finally gt a seat
but we missed the happy hour... ><
with her ard i dare not drink any alcohol, jus in case
she had apple martini
we had Timbre's Hawaiian pizza and buffalo wings
abit too much for only two of us
we cant finish and takeaway the pizza

xian really cant drink
jus such a small serving of apple martini
she mistook security's office as mrt station!!
she even stepped on a guys foot (he's wearing slippers) with her super sharp high heels!!
lolx

SSME Specialization

2010-05-11T21:24:00.002+08:00

Finally got my specialization.
so now it will be
majoring in computing information systems
specialization in service science, management and engineering (SSME)
minoring in mathematics

hopefully my MA2312 tis sem can scrape through
didnt manage to finish studying it
didnt manage to finish the paper
too much focus on CS2106 le
i truly regret it
hopefully it wun fail
hopefully it wun pull down my caps
i wished...

약속/Yak Sok/Promise - Yi San OST

2010-05-07T22:38:00.005+08:00

장윤정(Jang Yoon Jung)

기억 하나요 가슴 아픈 사연을
你还记得吗那心痛的往事
Do you still remember, those very painful matters
내님 오실 날을 저울질 하나요
数着我的郎君归来的日子
Counting the days that my loved one would return
한참 후에야 그 마음을 알았죠
默然才发现心中的惆怅
Silently only then do I discover my disconsolateness
내가 아닌 곳에 머물러 있다는 걸
才明白您留在没有我的地方
Only then do I understood that you are staying at a place that does not include me
내게 올 순 없나요 사랑할 순 없었나요
无法回到我身边了吗无法再相爱了吗
Could you not return to my side? Could you not fall in love again?
그대 헤일 수 없는 맘 나 였던가요
对您无尽的思念就是我的心
My heart is one that keeps you endlessly in my thoughts
잊지 말아요 가슴 아픈 사랑이
不要忘记那心痛的爱情
Do not forget that painful love
슬퍼하는 날엔 내가 서 있을께요
当你痛苦的时候我会守护在你身旁
When you suffer I will be by your side to protect you
이대로 안되나요 돌아올 길 잊었나요
不能就这么停留吗忘记回来的路了吗
Could we not stop here? Could we not forget the return path?
그대 헤일 수 없는 맘 나 였던가요
对您无尽的思念就是我的心
My heart is one that keeps you endlessly in my thoughts
잊지 말아요 가슴 아픈 사랑이
不要忘记那心痛的爱情
Do not forget that painful love
슬퍼하는 날엔 내가 서 있을께요
当你痛苦的时候我会守护在你身旁
When you suffer I will be by your side to protect you

ASP Dying?

2010-04-17T14:37:00.000+08:00

Question: Why suggest the development of a new ASP application when ASP model is getting less popular nowadays? Why not consider cloud computing?

Of course it would be great if our company can adopt new technologies like cloud computing. However, the cost of developing a new project using new technologies is definitely going to be a huge cost including learning and development cost. We have to take into consideration the capability, capacity and resources of the company. As we did mention in our presentation and report that the main issue with our company is in fact the limitation in resources, specifically financial and human resource, venturing into a new technology might pose a risk for us especially when we are new in this aspect. Considering the cost of using new technologies, we would find it tough to do so.

Although new technologies have been coming out, from our understanding and research, we found that many of the companies including big enterprises are still using old technologies and systems due to sunk and switching cost. The system built on the new technology may not be compatible with their legacy systems thus, it may be one of the rejection for a new technology. There may be need for change management.

Therefore, we suggested development of a new ASP system exploiting what we can do best. Our recommendation could be deemed as a short term plan. Due to the fact that ASP model is our current business model, it is definitely difficult for us to change our model instantly. Immediate change may result in intensive burden and cost to the company and in turn be unhealthy to the firm's financial health. The main emphasize of our recommendation lies in generating revenue for the company, to improve our financial performance for further growth and expansion. Perhaps going into cloud computing may be a long term goal to be done gradually.

2010-04-14T10:54:00.001+08:00

It's not about equal sharing of work, but getting the best person to do the best job.

2010-03-28T19:17:00.002+08:00

Today went IKEA, got
a new white chair,
a new white trash bin,
a new set of glass cups.

화분/ Hwaboon/ Flowerpot

2010-03-23T12:36:00.007+08:00

Alex (Clazziquai)

멀리서 멀리서 멀리서 그대가 오네요
You come to me from some place far away
이 떨리는 마음을 어떻게 말해야 하나요
My heart trembles, how can I express my feelings?
그댄 처음부터 나의 마음을 빼앗고
You stole my heart from the start
나을수 없는 병을 내게 주었죠
and gave me an incurable sickness
화분이 될래요 나는 늘 기도하죠
I want to become a flowerpot. I pray always.

Chorus
난 그대 작은 창가에 화분이 될게요
I’ll become a flowerpot that sits on your small windowsill
아무 말 못해도 바랄 수 없어도
Though I can’t speak or want anything at all
가끔 그대의 미소와 손길을 받으며
I’ll be able to see you smile and feel your touch once in awhile
잠든 그대 얼굴 한없이 볼 수 있겠죠
And I’ll be the one gazing at your face as you sleep

멀리도 멀리도 멀리도 그대가 가네요
You leave me for some place far away
떨어지는 눈물을 어떻게 달래야 하나요
How can I stop my tears from falling?
그댄 처음부터 나의 마음을 가졌고
You had my heart from the start
나을 수 없는 병을 앓게 한 거죠
and made me suffer an incurable sickness
화분이 되고픈 나는 늘 기도하죠
I want to become a flowerpot. I pray always

Chorus
난 그대 작은 창가에 화분이 될게요
I’ll become a flower pot that sits on your small windowsill
아무 말 못해도 바랄 수 없어도
Though I can’t speak or want anything at all
가끔 그대의 미소와 손길을 받으며
I’ll be able to see you smile and feel your touch once in awhile
잠든 그대 얼굴 한없이 볼 수 있겠죠
And I’ll be the one gazing at your face as you sleep
난 그대 작은 창가에 화분이 될게요
I’ll become a flowerpot that sits on your small windowsill
아무 말 못해도 바랄 수 없어도
Though I can’t speak or want anything at all
가끔 그대의 미소와 손길을 받으며
I'll be able to see you smile and feel your touch once in awhile
잠든 그대 얼굴 한없이 볼 수 있겠죠
And I’ll be the one gazing at your face as you sleep
난 그대 작은 창가에 화분이 될게요
I’ll become a flowerpot that sits on your small windowsill
아무 말 못해도 바랄 수 없어도
Though I can’t speak or want anything at all
가끔 그대의 미소와 손길을 받으며
I’ll be able to see you smile and feel your touch once in awhile
잠든 그대 얼굴 한없이 볼 수 있겠죠
And I’ll be the one gazing at your face as you sleep

2010-03-07T20:23:00.002+08:00

Got a new phone today!!
Nokia E63,
white,
an old model,
fine with me,
I dun expect much from handphone
=)

短歌行

2009-12-08T18:13:00.002+08:00

词：曹操/陈乃荣曲：陈乃荣

对着酒应该唱歌人生就像清晨露水还能多久呢
过去的时光已足够过去遗忘忧愁
我却只能一杯接着一杯

因为你不懂我的心我们无止尽的猜忌还要多久呢
过去的时光还不够化解爱恨情仇
我却只能一杯接着一杯

想起了你就像一轮明月不知什么时候才能把酒言欢
我为你奔波为你伤你怎么能忘怀
孤单单让这首诗歌再无处藏身

白色的月让黑夜不再寒冷少了星星的陪伴它更显得凄凉
我为你奔波为你伤我就让你忘怀
等待你有一天飞向我

A Cake!

2009-08-21T23:41:00.003+08:00

Got a cake today!
Hahx.
Been quite some time since I have my own cake.
Been quite some time since my friends celebrated bday with me.
Never tot will be celebrating bday tis year.
Never tot I will have a cake.
Never tot will be celebrating in sch.
Hahx.
1. I wish I can get an A for CS3214 though I know will be tough.
Friends, really thank alot for the cake. (不好意思，让你们破费了><) Thank alot for the bday song. Thank alot for getting lighter too. Thank alot for everything =D Let me be abit greedy. Hahx. Jus let me have 2 more wishes.
2. I wish I can get at least a 3rd class honors when I graduate.
3. I wish 大哥 and 二哥 will still continue be my 大哥 and 二哥 even after they graduated. lolx

2009-08-06T23:45:00.002+08:00

死后来着什么？
回忆吗？
然而最美好的回忆也只剩悲伤。
再多的回忆也只是唯一。
是有限的。
回忆再也不会更新。
一切随着死亡来到了句点。
是这样吗？

Bye Mone

2009-08-06T23:41:00.000+08:00

8月6日的今天
Mone 离开了我们
离开了这个家
离开了这个世界...

Change of CS3214 wrkshop date

2009-07-31T00:37:00.002+08:00

yeah!
change of date for CS3214 workshop
sch only starts from wk1 instead of wk0!
So HAPPY!

不同

2009-07-25T01:38:00.002+08:00

有看不过去的地方，不能苟同的地方的话
就把自己想说的好好告诉对方，好好听对方想说的
然后都好好地去思考
这样的话就会注意到对方和自己的不同之处
正因为都视对方为同样的人
即使是稍稍被否定，也会很生气
如果有谁单独行动，就会想那家伙算什么呀
这样就开始吵架
但是这世上是不存在同样的人的
大家都是思维方式，情况各不相同的人
所以应该理解自己和对方是不同的
在这基础上才能考虑使用什么样的语言
能把自己的心意传达给对方，怎样才能说服对方
虽然都是人，但都存在不同之处
~CHANGE

相处。恐怖。

2009-07-25T00:14:00.003+08:00

今天一切都很平常

直到晚餐时间 - 7pm

妈妈今天没煮

我和慧娴商量很久才决定到家楼下吃

不知道妈妈吃了没

就也约了她

我和慧娴先点了鱼肉米粉

食物刚到时

妈妈就来了

“妈咪，你吃什么？”

“今天很累”

“那么就告诉他们不要加班了。”

“就这个月”

后来妈妈说看到熟人要换位

换到我旁边坐

然后又要我换位

但我已经开始吃了

觉得都没这个必要

但是妈妈样子就要我换

但是旁边的位子都脏了

我就想坐回原本的位

便说了“位子都肮脏的，我都开始吃了，硬要人家换位”

哪知她突然站起说她不吃了，就要回家

当时我也不知她突然发什么脾气

有一点呆住

喊她也不睬我

我便追了上去

还是不睬我

我说“你这样我怎么还吃得下？”

“ 那么就别吃！”

我又呆了一会儿

然后有回到原位

慧娴还在那里吃着

“打回家，问妈咪要吃什么。”

“没人听”

“可能还没到家”

我快速把米粉吃完

大概不到五分钟

跟慧娴要了钥匙

“有我这样的姐姐很可怜，莫名其妙把妈妈气走，很对不起不是有心把你一个人丢在这儿，对不起”

说完就赶回家

“妈咪”

没应

“你不要吃啊？”

没应

去冲凉

我受不了这种气氛

很压力，很恐惧

换了衣打算随便找个地方躲一下

“慧娴，你还在楼下啊？”

“嗯”

“你去打包$1.50的水粿，辣椒放旁边”

“哦，那么我再过马路”

“那样就算了，我也不知道妈咪要不要吃，她完全不理我，算了你回来吧”

一会儿慧娴回来了

我应了门

“我要出去”

“去哪里？”

“不知道”

穿了鞋

“我出去买点东西”

就出门了

到公园坐

不到一会儿胃就开始痛

就知道自己不可以吃这么快

也不知道何时起胃就开始很不好

不可以吃快

吃饱也不行，不吃也不行

完全都不会感觉到饿

决定回家

气也该消了吧

“妈咪”

还是不睬我

我便蹲厕所，便蹲了40分钟

气氛很差

很不自在

就想找个地方躲

吃了常吃的panadol

但是似乎药效没那么好了

决定冲个凉，可以躲冲凉房一阵子

出来后便躲进房间用电脑

妈咪要睡了

我便去刷牙

“你明天做几点？”

没睬我

我心里暗叹，算了明天会没事吧

后来大概11点多

突然房间有只蟑螂，我最最害怕的

拿了杀虫剂，和塑胶袋

也许是太害怕吧

对蟑螂猛喷杀虫剂

头脑根本不能思考

只能想，蟑螂几时会晕，几时会晕

“还喷！你不用做工，我明天还要做工的！”

妈咪好凶。

还没气消吧

“这么自私！”

突然觉得妈咪好可怕

好想找个地方躲

她坐了起来, 往我的方向瞪了过来

好可怕

我便又刷牙

根本不敢靠近

好怕

好伤心

妈咪好像真的很讨厌我

一定在想

我吃这么大了

也不去做工

在家里整天不知道在做什么

看了就碍眼

妈咪一定是这么想的

难道我就没烦恼吗？

是，我不必做工

但我没闲着

我的学业出现问题

队员少了

科目少了

8mc的科目

早点开学

我担心学校的事

明白吗？

知道吗？

压力

面对人很压力

我的事很压力

头很痛

人很累

知道吗？

你们知道吗？

人很奇怪

无论放学或放工后总是喜欢摆出一副很累的样子

就好像每个人欠她似的

即使真的累了也是自己的事

我学校的问题我有搬回家给大家看吗？

功课不会做，交不出，赶deadline

我有说出来吗？

说出来又怎么样？

累了又怎么样？

能帮我解决吗？

能帮我睡吗？

我知道说出来又不能改变什么

反而会增添大家的烦恼。

其实这次从Segamat回来后

我一直想告诉妈咪

人很恐怖

可以不面对该多好

在一起，

还必须考虑对方在想什么

说话前必须考虑对方的心情

看对方的脸色

只能说对方喜欢的话

即便是家人

很辛苦

很可怕

很压力

还是家里比较好

但是原来家里也一样

是危险的

人都是很恐怖的

很怕

舍一点是得到

2009-05-24T13:41:00.000+08:00

舍弃该舍弃的便会得到该得到的。

2009-05-22T14:01:00.001+08:00

yea
假期终于正式复我约了。
妈咪的作业终于告一段落了。
昨天交上去了。
好像做的蛮好的。
妈咪看起来蛮得意的。
看来我的用心并没白费。
我重获自由了！
是时候打算要怎么过我的假期了。

假期，我们不是约好了吗？

2009-05-09T12:54:00.002+08:00

唉
虽然考完试放假了，
但是我期待已久的假期竟然还没开始！
我妈咪有事交给我做。
帮她找资料想点子打报告。
天啊，
我何时才能休息，
才能真正拥有我的私人空间 ><
把我当成透明的吧。
就当我不存在。
我不会介意的。
真的。

终于过了

2009-05-08T13:47:00.000+08:00

5月7号的我终于考完试了。
终于可以放松我这几段时间一直绷紧的精神。
对于这次的考试，
我不能说没失望，
那只是一点点，就一点点而已。
似乎得到的并没有付出的那么多。
虽然是这样，
不过还是得好好慰劳自己，
毕竟我已经努力过了，
也尽力了。

Quotes

2009-04-28T18:14:00.002+08:00

国以民为本，民以食为天，食以农为先。
冰冻三尺非一日之寒
女子无才便是德
曲终人散恩已散人走茶凉情更凉
人成各，今非昨。
生气是拿别人的罪过来惩罚自己。
幸福不是拥有的多而是计较的少。
把不可能变成可能，那就是人。
天下无不是的父母。
当你能够喊出痛的时候，那痛便不算是痛，有一种痛，能让你痛得连喊都喊不出声来。当你能够哭的时候，那也不算是伤心，有一种伤心，会让你连哭也哭不出来。
PerFecT is itsElf an IMPerFecT
我们不会输，因为我们不知道怎么输。
忧天下之所忧，恨天下之所恨，笑天下之所笑，喜天下之所喜。

Die Die ><

2009-03-11T00:14:00.003+08:00

这个星期真的不像是人过的。
我的运气就如从前般那样狈。

上个新期二(3/3/2009)：
考SSA2202
傍晚有CH2291 Project Meeting
晚上做CH2291资料

新期三和四待在家里温习CS3253
喉咙痛没声音

星期五(6/3/2009)：
感冒发烧
考CS3253
回到家烧39度
准备CS2100的考试

星期六(7/3/2009)：
还在发烧
早上9.15am CS2100 Mid-Term
10.30am 准备CH2291 Script
12.oopm Cs3253 Project Meeting
2.00pm 做CS3253 Project Solution 和 Slides
6.30pm Bugis 买 Office Wear
10.3opm 做 CH2291 Slides 修改Script

没睡

星期天(8/3/2009)：
早上9am到Bugis CH2291 Project Meeting
12.30pm 修改CH2291 Slides
2.00pm 做CS2100 Lab
4.00pm 做CS2100 Tutorial
6.oopm 做SSA2202 Tutorial
8.00pm to finish CS3253 Script和Slides
11.15pm 准备CH2291 Final PPT
1.05am try to 记得CH2291 Script

睡不到3小时

星期一(9/3/2009)：
8am 要到学校
6pm 到家
7pm 检查CS3253 Slides
9pm try to 记得CS3253 Script
1.30am 睡觉

星期二(10/3/2009)：
6am 起床
9am 到学校
1.15am CS3253 Project Meeting
2.00pm CS3253 Presentation

and 一切终于过了。
终于可以休息一下，喘口气。

接下来
一大堆MA1312 Tutorial 和 Supplementary 没做
SSA2202 Project (DL: 31/3/2009)
CH2291 Report (DL: 3/4/2009)
CS2100 Term Test (11/4/2009)
Catch up CS2100
CS2100 Assignment

2009-03-02T22:58:00.004+08:00

颜淑娴走到现在

得到的太多，
要数数不清，
能给的太少，
要算算不出。

所以，

爱我的人，
我会爱他们。
不爱我的人，
我会爱他们。
对我不利的人，
我会忘了一切，
我会包容一切。

2009-02-27T00:47:00.004+08:00

"Embrace your dreams..

.................and no matter what...

..................................protect your honor..."

2009-02-07T00:43:00.002+08:00

似乎，
人类是渺小却自大的恶劣动物，
不是吗？

是偶然吗？

2009-01-30T11:12:00.004+08:00

今天我衷心地感谢几位朋友。

我终于鼓起勇气到一个让我有可能会遗憾的人的家。
我终于不会有遗憾。

今天的我很意外的竟然坐上半生不熟朋友的车到不熟悉的地方。
过后又莫名其妙的到他家。
他家很巧的就在我三年没踏入的地区里。
平常不喜欢逛他人家的我，今天也竟然跟着朋友逛了一下。
我还跟这位朋友借了柑来拜年。
一切似乎都是冥冥中注定好的。
一个我三年都不敢踏进的地区。
一个让我既熟悉又极为陌生的地方。
一件让我觉得不做就会有遗憾，但又不做的事。
一个天天想见的人却又不敢见。
是怕被拒之门外吧？

只听见她叫我都觉得别外温馨。

颜淑娴做的每一样事都不会后悔，
有的，也只是遗憾。

这样，我的遗憾该少一件了吧..

新年快乐！我的牙齿更快乐！Yea~~

2009-01-26T14:01:00.004+08:00

时间过得真快，
还记得上回的新年博了一篇《牙齿生日》，
现在新年又来咯！

我的牙齿似乎比我更幸福，更快乐。
我的生日是一年一度，
但是我的牙齿似乎每逢佳节都是生日。
因为叔叔每逢佳节都会拿很多好吃的到我家。
这次新年也不例外。
我的牙齿好开心，
我当然也开心咯。
哈哈。

由于功课太繁忙了，假期也不多，
今年的新年我又没回昔加末了。
应该有两年的新年没回了吧。
小时候每逢新年都有回昔加末的我，
一直觉得新年没回去，还真是可惜。
因为在新加坡真的没什么新年的气息，
过得就如任何一天一般。

想是习惯吧。
习惯了在昔加末过的新年。
习惯了放炮睡不着的晚上。
虽然，好像也没放炮了，但记忆仍然深刻，就像还听到炮声似的。
习惯了大大小小，老老少少，热热闹闹，嘻嘻哈哈，聚在一起吃团圆饭。
过新年嘛，每顿饭都十分丰盛。
但我深信即便当初吃的是简单的家乡小菜或者只给我白饭，
也一定比任何山珍海味还来得好吃。
因为让大家吃得开心的是家人的笑声，
是“身旁还有许多维护自己的家人”的感觉。
这繁忙的社会，全家一起吃顿饭是极为的难得啊。
但，随着光阴的流逝，周围的人与事物都有了变化。
人成各，今非昨。

活在当下。
简单的过了今年的新年。
希望这新的一年，
大家幸福快乐，
世界少灾少难。
天天笑口常开，好运自然来!

HAPPY ＮＥＷ YEAR!

在表姐家无聊时拍的照片~

大家加油咯！

2009-01-24T23:29:00.002+08:00

我颜淑娴
对于自己所
做的事情，
所说的话，
我从不质疑。
我从不后悔．
有的
也只会是遗憾。

2009-01-24T23:27:00.002+08:00

是我的，定会得到。
非我的，送也不要。

2009-01-24T00:32:00.002+08:00

诸行无常。当以智慧知见这点时，他就会对苦感到厌倦。这既是朝向清静之道。

解释，需要吗？

2009-01-10T01:18:00.016+08:00

最近看了一位朋友写的《解释就是掩饰》。
里头有这么三段：

其实不想解释的原因是相信清者自清。
局外人应该懂得分辨对错。
或许我错了。

几年前有人劝我,
一定在被冤枉时解释清楚。
因为我总不会这么做。

但我说难道他们不懂得分辨对错黑白吗?
是的,
人是很奇怪的。
你不做解释 = 默认
你尝试解释 = 心虚

而我对这《解释就是掩饰》也有一些想法。

我认为解释本身就是个问题。

当你需要解释的时候，
这是否代表对方不了解你？
如果他了解你，他就会晓得你为何如此，那又何须解释？

当你需要解释的时候，
这是否代表对方不信任你？
如果他信任你，他就会尊重你的选择，那又何须解释？

那么既然此人既不了解你亦不信任你，
你又何必解释。
你又何必管他想什么。
他信就信，不信就不信。
道不相同，不相为谋。
此人的想法又何需稀罕。
甚至，此时该想想，怎么会认识此人？
当时的认识，是否就是个错误？

人，怎么说呢？
该说是矛盾吧。

解释根本就是多此一举。
对方想听你的解释但同时也不需要你的解释。
因为对方心底早已下了结论。
无论你说什么也不会改变他的想法。
因此，就有了这：
不解释就是默认，解释就是掩饰。
因为当你还没解释时，就早已有了结果。
无论如何，结果终究是结果。

解释是因为对方否认你的做法。
既然他否认你的做法，他又何曾会去赞同你的解释？
他要的只不过是你那句：“我错了”

一个人会做一件事一定有他的理由。
难道明知是错的，还会去做吗？
既然有理由，那么就代表是非得做的事咯。
既然非得做，那么解释和不解释又有何不同？
解释，需要吗？

解释，只因时间太多，太无聊，心情好。
说说几句让对方如愿，打发时间，这又何尝不是件好事？
但若此人是你的知己，那便是曾经。
他只会是朋友。

沟通

2008-12-26T14:38:00.006+08:00

常问自己：“人为何要沟通？为何要说话？难道不说话不行吗？”我不大爱说话，更不喜欢与他人沟通。但是，我不能否认若要好好生存在着当下社会，言语是一种非常重要的沟通工具，每个人都必须善用它，而在这个阶段的我，不说不行，我还想好好生存。

万物之中，以言语来表达情感的为有人类。上帝赐给人的这种特别的本领，如果我们不能好好地运用，我们就简直有愧于“高等动物”这个名称。

其实，对我而言，说话是一门大学问。就如现在一样，若要完整地表达一句话的意思，又要完全被听话的人接受，除了要仔细听之外，还要注意说话的时间，地点，气氛和对象。但是，多数人往往喜欢说话，不愿听他人的意见。我认为这样只是在制造杂音罢了。

常听人说：“饭可以乱吃，话不能乱讲”。一句出言不逊的话，可以造成许多误会，引起种种冲突与问题。许多人都相信祸从口出，我当然也不例外。毕竟，唇舌比刀更会伤人。有时，说者无意，听者有心。也因此，一句话不知不觉中就伤到了一个人的心灵。但是，若想平息纠纷，化干戈为玉帛的这个神圣的任务，也只有言语才能办到。

在人与人的沟通中，言语是最直接，最简单的交际工具。人的误会，仇视常是在不经心的一言一语中发生的。因此，说话虽然简单，但要说的好，谈何容易。所以，人们要谨慎地使用它。我认为某些事物，以行动来表示或许会更好。因为说多错多。但是，不知道不说话会更好吗？

总之，言语有利有弊，必须看人如何使用，不是吗？

2008-12-23T01:49:00.003+08:00

把每一天当成生命的最后一天，
是否就会活得更加充实？

明天会如何？
可晓得？

2008-12-17T02:42:00.002+08:00

千里寻佳音，熟知吾家心。
万里无觅处，只在近尺度。

我错了

2008-11-19T00:02:00.009+08:00

最近的我累了。
太累了。
好想他。

他。
一个最了解我的人。
一个知道何时该出现，何时不该出现在我眼前的人。
一个当我需要他时，会在第一时间出现在我身边的人。
一个当我需要安静，默默在我身边陪伴的人。
一个当我需要答案，告诉我怎么办的人。
一个当我不开心时，会放下尊严，想尽方法逗我笑的人。
一个不必我开口，便知道我想要什么的人。
一个不会勉强我做不想做的事的人。
一个我最相信的人。

他说过：
“人是善忘的。”

他说过：
“读书要读生动的。”

他说过：
“在说他人之前，先看看自己。”

虽然偶尔会意见不合，
但是我不否认他是最懂我的人。
可是他却走了。
因为知道好朋友难找，知己难得，知音更难寻。
所以这两年，
我很努力地试着改变自己，
试着去接受，去相信身边的其他人。

不过我发现我错了。

因为根本就没必要改变自己。

我，
也很好。

累

2008-11-16T16:07:00.004+08:00

今天很不开心。
昨天很不开心。
前天也很不开心。
相信明天也是很不开心。

家里的事，我不开心。
学校的事，我不开心。
样样事物，我不开心。

累了。

何时开始我累了？
究竟是周遭的事物把我弄累了？
还是我已厌倦周围的一切？

怎么开心？
我已经不知道了。

2008-11-15T23:17:00.001+08:00

今天去了茶渊
点了最爱的龙井茶
下了盘围棋
这样的感觉真是不错。

我又生病了

2008-10-13T00:14:00.002+08:00

又？
对阿，这个学期不知怎么的，一直生病。
这头刚生病好不到一周，那头又来新的。
现在还发烧了。
而且想睡又不能睡，
能睡，又没心睡。
功课没赶完怎么睡得着？
通宵赶功课，但是就是不会做。
还是同样一句话，
即使功课会做，也做不完。
真是有心余而力不足。

忙疯了

2008-10-08T00:43:00.003+08:00

好像几百年没上来了，
差点就要弃坑了。
最近真是太忙了。
上上周的一星期假期还真是‘假’的。
我几乎天天都有回学校。
不是温书，就是做project。
不像假期的假期就别说了。
赶功课赶到现在都还没赶完。
功课就堆到像山似的，
这头没做完，又堆了多一山。
最近运气还真背的，
出test, test有penalty，
出homework, homework太多，
出assignment, assignment不会做，
出project, project有group mate不合作，
做什么事情，都好像缺了什么的。
我就快要isolate自己了，
什么都不想做，
不想上学，
不想说话，
不想动，
也不想吃了。
Haix，到底有完没完的，
我要休息啦！
我要真的假期，
应该说我要‘真’期 ><"

特别的一天，特别的我

2008-08-23T21:01:00.002+08:00

好久没博了。
一博就选在了这特别的日子。
今天怎么特别法？
对大家来说其实今天并没什么，
也许是幸运的一天，
也许是倒霉的一天。
但是对我来说可不一样。
这可是世上有我存在的第一天。
但是妈咪都不以为然，我哪敢邀功呢？哈哈
最近都很忙，因为开始上学了，都差点忘了。

比起礼物，还觉得一声“生日快乐”比较实在。
突然觉得在这方面的我还跟一位还没熟透的朋友常说的“讲心不讲金”还蛮对称的。
但是平时的我都会说“讲心在这社会是吃不饱的”。
如今看来，在这方面上讲心还是胜过讲金的。
所以这一天的我无论怎么忙也会上上msn，check check mail，再勤劳的找handphone（每次都忘了放在哪)=P
有时候还会无聊地去算算有几个“Happy Birthday" ><"

但是，每年还是很期待慧娴和婷姐的礼物。
所以嘛，今年还算是满载而归的。
但都可不是我敲诈得来的哦！

Segamat 之旅

2008-08-02T21:48:00.020+08:00

待续...

Wednesday, June 18, 2008

今天是十五，所以一早就和姑姑去拜拜（10.30am 算早吗？呵呵）
先去了了老家一趟。

老家

再到花店去买花（花店老板娘还问姑姑我是不是她的的女儿。哈哈），
然后到妙音去拜拜。
过后，我们去了〈古味道〉用早点。
姑姑喝 white coffee，我和 iced peach tea 和两粒半熟蛋。
还真巧，不到一会儿，就见龙gor gor 走进来。
他叫了Kopi Ice 和 Curry Rice。

古味道

和gor gor去了鸟屋，
回家路上经过河，还看到伟最爱的牛！=P
但是那只牛悠哉悠哉的都不踩我！~

牛，不要这样啦，看过来...

牛屋

Gor gor 拍一边

我拍一边

回家不久五婶和珍也来了。
我们去了素食馆吃。
我吃了面粉糕。
说实在的，这里的东西我天天吃都不会腻。
而且很多都是新加坡吃不到的哦！
即使物同，味也不同。
这里简直就是美味天堂！哈哈！

晚上，我们去佛缘吃晚餐（素食餐馆）。
有炸虾求，砂锅豆腐，咖喱鱼和菜。
味道不用问，只能说好，超好，super 好！
晚上大家又开工了！！=D

佛缘..

到了2am，
大家都饿了，
所以到MacDonald's吃。
吃饱回家后，我和姑姑还聊到了4.30am！

不要偷笑啦


Tuesday, June 17, 2008

人常说“早起的鸟儿有虫吃”
但是千万别忘了“早起的虫儿被鸟吃”！
我呢，自然是聪明的虫咯，不早起。
起床时，龙gor gor早来拾燕窝了。
哈哈，我没帮忙，因为我陪姑姑一起去载珍和伟放学。
等珍准备好就一起出去吃。
我们最后决定打包回家陪龙gor gor吃(够义气吧=P)。
我和龙gor gor吃鸡饭，姑姑和珍吃素食。
鸡饭配菊花茶，真是棒啊！

吃完后当然就一起帮忙拾燕窝。
过后，就一起看<老师嫁老大>。好好笑哦！
大约8pm，
我们到家乐用晚餐。

家乐...

这是一个我到Segamat决不能没来的地方。
别看家乐这个地方简陋简陋的，
食物虽是家庭小菜，
但是水准可非凡哦。
而且这里的菜不是随便哪里都有的喔！
我们order了两碗面粉糕，一盘香底米粉，一般潮州炒果条和一盘炒猪肠粉。
我还点了椰水 =D
吃得好饱好饱，就快走不动了啦！
所以嘛，
东西未必讲究高尚，摆到美美的，或是用山珍海味烹调的就是好。
何况山珍海味吃久了也会腻的。
有时简单的小菜反而更难得，更有味道，更加可口。
当然，也要看是和谁一起吃咯！=P

“哎哟，怎么还不上菜嘛！我都快饿扁了~”

上菜咯！

少不了水

Monday, June 16, 2008

一觉醒来已经是十点了。
我，珍和姑姑一同到圆园茶餐厅用早餐。
我点了半熟蛋和最爱的Ice Peach Tea，
珍也点了Ice Peach Tea还有Toast，
姑姑就点了Nasi Lemak and Teh C。
我们还点了今日的‘重头菜’炸豆腐和炸鲍鱼菇。

炸鲍鱼菇应该在新加坡很少见吧，
可能根本就没有，
因为在新加坡20年的我可从没见过哦！
相信即使新加坡有也未必这么好吃。
你要想，
从来没吃蔬菜或是蘑菇之类的我竟然在这里吃了鲍鱼菇，
还觉得非常的不错，
可见这里的炸鲍鱼菇有多么的不错。
简直就是赞啊！
炸豆腐我就不多说，
若要我说的话就一定很不公平，
因为我这个人超爱吃豆腐类的食物。
我只能说这道炸豆腐看似一道简单的菜，
不过要炸得外脆内软可一点不简单。

圆园...
我的Ice Peach Tea

炸鲍鱼菇和Toast

炸豆腐

吃饱后就一起到大悲水（齐天大圣的庙）去。
拿食物去喂那里的狗儿，
当然也去那里拜拜咯。
狗！没听错吧？去喂狗？！
Oh my god!！我最怕狗了！
我怕怕地跟在姑姑和珍的后面，
心想我可以留在外头吗？
奇怪，
不是说喂狗吗？哪有哦？半条狗影都没看见。
进门不久，
姑姑和珍就叫‘Viki’。
不到一会儿就见好多狗向我们冲过来！
天啊！我要闪到哪？有个让我钻进的洞我也不介意！
我还依然躲在姑姑身后。
算算看，
1，2，3，……，8只狗！
那些狗见到姑姑和珍都很兴奋，
好像是来迎接我们似的。
姑姑说那些狗不咬人的，
不过看到其中有些狗眼睛红红的，凶凶的，
我还是很怕 ><”

Viki 可爱吧？

狗狗，我怕怕 ><"

一下子后，我就适应了一点，
比较没那么怕了。
那里还有一个姐姐，
她很亲切，还告诉了我很多关于狗的事物。
过后来到后面洗手时，
见到一块很像大象的石头。
听说那可是被人用炸药炸过三次都炸不开的石头，
后来被人奉为‘象公’拿来拜拜。

回到家，
就见姑姑往窗外丢米和玉蜀黍粒。
姑姑在做什么？
当然是在喂鸟咯！
这里是鸟的晚餐餐厅。
哈哈
姑姑天天都会喂鸟儿吃米粮。
附近的鸟儿都是常客。
来这里的鸟儿有鸽子，麻雀，Burong Kuku还有一种人家拿来放生的鸟，有时还有八哥，喜鹊和白头翁。

好多鸟！那些小小粒粒的不是石头，是麻雀哦！

傍晚我们去了Pasar Malam。
队里有伟，珍，姑姑和我。
这里的Pasar Malam和新加坡的超不一样。
他们这里有卖鱼卖菜，卖Satay，卖糕点，卖衣服，等等的。
对了，还有卖珍珠奶茶！我的最爱！
直接就去买杯珍珠奶茶边走边喝 =D
这里的珍珠奶茶和新加坡的也是不一样的，
新加坡用的是糖精，这里用的是香粉。
我喝的是哈密瓜奶茶，
你看颜色多鲜艳，
好好喝也！
这里好热闹，好多人啊。
接着姑姑又买了Satay给我吃。
哈哈
边走边吃的感觉实在太棒了！

Pasar Malam...

珍珠奶茶


Satay

哇！还有卖鱼的！

走完后就去了趟附近二姑的家。
在那里坐坐后，
就到慈心，一间素食餐馆用晚餐。
你没听错，我今天的晚餐就是素食！
奇怪吧？不吃菜的我到底要吃什么？
其实我在想，
可能吃肉的我是被环境所逼的，
因为新加坡的素真是吃不下。
新加坡便宜到贵的素食我爸爸都带我吃过，
不过每次我都多数出白饭 ><”
不过在这里，
我可是心甘情愿，还是很乐意的去吃素食的。
尤其是慈心的！
到那里点的菜当然不能少了我的favourite-炸虾球！
我们还点了铁板豆腐，素蛋角and两道青菜。
哈哈。我又要强调了，
不吃素食的我在这儿吃素，
你又想想有多好吃呢？
简直太棒了！

慈心...

我的最爱-炸虾球！

铁板豆腐

素蛋角

这是什么菜？我不知道。哈哈

太好吃了！

吃饱后，
回家休息一会儿，
就开始拾燕窝。
还没说呢，
我五叔可厉害咯！
他是养燕的哦！
所以我这次才能有这个机会看看燕窝是怎么弄成的。
但是，
要拾燕看似容易做是难。
因为拾燕的最主要工作就是把燕毛从燕窝中挑出来。
燕毛好细，
要把它们挑出来谈何容易呢？
还是熟练的龙gor gor 比较厉害。
不到一会儿就拾得干干净净的。
我简直是望尘莫及，
玩玩就行 =P

还没拾的燕窝

Sunday, June 15, 2008

今天终于要出发到昔加末了！
从新加坡Tanjong Pagar火车站出发。
回来新加坡的火车嘛，
上次搭过了。
不过去那儿的，
好久没搭了。
想想也有十多年了吧。
想到要搭火车回去就好兴奋。

和姑姑，堂妹和堂弟一同出发。
大家都拿了大包小包上火车。
我还买了泡泡茶咯！
哪能少了它。
哈哈

Tanjong Pagar火车站



珍与我


3点就可以进门了。
提着行李过custom（应该是马国的custom）
然后就是检查行李。
我原本要打开行李给那个警察看的，
不过他只问了"What's inside?"
我答了"some clothes."
然后他就示意我不必开行李可以上火车了。
Yeah!顺利通过！
省了我一大堆麻烦。

上火车时大约3点15分了。
在火车上随意拿着handphone相机拍了又拍。
好期待，
不知还有多少时间就能抵达目的地。
刚上火车不久，
火车就开始走了。
奇怪，票上明明写着3点30分才走嘛，
怎么那么快就开走了呢？
还有好多人没上车也。
开不久，火车又停了，
然后又向回驶去，
不到一会儿，又向前开，
停一会儿，又向后退。
怎么啦？
我不会这么不幸吧？
别告诉我火车抛锚哦><"

听堂弟说好像是在换火车头。
为什么要换呢？
不知也不管了。
只要能到Segamat就好了！
我们又回到火车站，
原本没什么人的火车一下子就装满了人。
3点30分：出发咯！

火车上

火车轨道


我们到Woodlands的新加坡custom又得下车盖passport。
custom的系统都换了。
必须检查指纹，还有自动的开关门。
应该是要防恐怖分子的。
这次上了火车后就不必再下车了，
可以一路坐到Segamat了。

Johor Straits

一路上有好多东西可以看。
都是新加坡看不到的哦！
路上可以看到牛，看到羊，看到新加坡看不到的鸟，还看鸡在屋顶上！
有甘榜，
有许多花花草草，
还看到农田和油棕。
我拿着相机又不停地拍啊拍。
像我这种好久没搭火车的山龟，
当然就看什么都新鲜，不亦乐乎，
不过我旁边的堂弟就不以为然，开始睡觉了。

一路上的零零碎碎


7点15分抵达目的地-Segamat!
龙gor gor来载我们。
到Segamat的第一站：艺圣蛋糕店
买个1kg的大蛋糕(chocolate with walnut cake)要帮五叔庆祝父亲节！
我差点都忘了><"
过后我们就先回家放行李。
我打了通电话会家报平安。
接下来，
当然是去吃饭咯！

Segamat火车站



我坐龙gor gor的车。
哈哈
他还听英文歌You're Beautiful哦！
我们到联邦，一家冷气餐厅用餐。
叫了好多道菜。
有蒸鱼，炒甘榜鸡，排骨王，炸豆腐，煎蛋，还有两道青菜。
五叔挟了好大块豆腐和鱼给我 =D
坐在一傍的堂妹（珍）更是不停地挟食物给我，
把我的盘都放得满满的，
我根本不需要挟菜。哈哈
五婶还叫珍挟青菜给我！
LOLX
我还有点吓到，
因为我不吃菜的。
哈哈
不过五叔竟然还记得我没吃菜的，
就说我从小就没吃菜 =D
吃完丰盛的晚餐还有蛋糕吃！
看得出五叔看到蛋糕时好开心哦！
因为其他人虽然也庆祝父亲节不过都没买蛋糕。
不过可能因为太高兴了，
五叔似乎太用力地切蛋糕，
把蛋糕切了碎碎的。
LOLX! =P

吃完后就坐姑姑的车回家。
冲了凉，又和妹妹网上谈天。
在上网时，
没事做的珍向姑姑学客家话。
豆豆叫tiao tiao（读音有点像跳跳不过又不是）
我和妹妹聊完天后就join in他们的语课。
我要学福建话！
好歹我是福建人，
怎么能不懂福建话呢？
不过事实就是如此，
我会听但就是讲不出。
哈哈

难

2008-06-13T17:13:00.001+08:00

父母恩情难报。
手足情义难分。
师徒恩惠难还。
兄弟义气难忘。

人生有多多难事，
唯有情最难偿还。
想开点，
尽力而为，
无愧于天地人心就好。

兴奋期待 ><"

2008-06-12T23:51:00.003+08:00

Yeah!
明天就能看到我的
帅哥堂弟
可爱堂妹
和姑姑咯！
太兴奋了，
好希望这一刻能过得快些，
让我的等待短些...

Hahx! 还是被我买到了！

2008-06-10T23:25:00.002+08:00

今天到了好多地方逛逛。
我先去了Kovan的Heartland Mall,
然后和表姐去了Plaza Singapura和Bugis。
多亏了表姐我才买到了那天想买的vest。

那天在Bugis看到那件vest后就念念不忘。
我就到了Bishan的Samuel & Kevin,
但是那里没有我要的那件vest。
后来就和表姐到Plaza Singapura的Samuel & Kevin,
那里也没有，
后来问了那里的sales person才知道那件vest只有Bugis的Samuel & Kevin才有。

我还不死心，
觉得如果今天没买到那件vest的话就是在对不起自己了。
所以就和表姐赶到Bugis。
到那里时已经是晚上8点多就快9点了。
有些店都开始关了。
还好Samuel & Kevin还没关。

不过，
那些vest只剩下L size。
虽然知道L size for me应该是太大了，
如果是S或M就一定可以。
但是就是不死心，
试了试，
果然还是太大了。

我表姐就帮我问了那里的sales person那件vest几时还会来货？
但是很扫兴的，
那个人竟然说那件vest不会再来货了，是limited edition的。
Oh my,
那天我怎么不买嘛？
真想一头撞墙 LOLX

很失望地离开那里就想回家了。
不过表姐要到对面的Nike shop,
只好索性跟了去。
但是我还是很依依不舍地回头望了一下那件vest，
心里想：好可惜哦。
就这一望突然又给了我希望！
我看见那个model（假人）的身上竟然穿着那件vest!
那时的我差点就要喊出来了。
哈哈。

我立刻拉着表姐又回到那间Samuel & Kevin。
我再看了看那个model身上穿的vest，
不知是什么size的。
表姐就帮我再问了那个sales person那个model身上的vest是什么size的。
太棒了！
是M size!
表姐就叫那个sales person把那件vest拿给我。
还有点不好意思，
因为须要那个人拿梯子把上去把vest从model的身上取下来，
有点麻烦。

不管了，
我就是要那件vest。
试了试，
hmmm..
很不错
我要了。

今天多谢有表姐陪我才买到那件vest,
多亏她陪我到那么多地方找，
也幸亏她想去Nike shop，
否则我没买到vest就很伤心地回家了。
不但如此，
那件vest还是我表姐买给我的。
as我的生日礼物！
今年收到的礼物还真早嘛 =D

我要出国咯！

2008-06-09T23:42:00.000+08:00

刚才和姑姑通电话时，
她说星期五或六可以出来新加坡带我回昔加末！

自从A水准考试后的假期回去过一次，
我就一直盼着再回去的一天。
哈哈，
还终于被我盼到了！
不单是这样，
听说堂妹堂弟都会来新加坡哦！=D
太想他们了，
所以好兴奋。
想今天是睡不着了><"

很好奇我怎么没去常说想去的中国啦，台湾啦，韩国还是日本等等吧。
其实能到昔加末一趟对我来说比去其他国家更加的有意义。

昔加末虽然只是在马国的一个小镇，
但是对我来说是意义非凡的。
它可是我爸爸的家乡哦！
我有好多的亲戚都住在那儿。

昔加末更是个休息散心的好地方。
环境清幽，
鸟语花香！
说到食物嘛，
更是没话说了。
只能给个好字！
想知道有多好吃？
那就去一趟吧。=P

喂喂鸟儿，
种种花草，
看看星星，
吹吹风，
逛逛街，
吃吃饭，
喝喝茶，
谈谈天，
说说笑，
就连一阵风吹过都会让你的心情变好。
像这样的生活在这繁忙的社会可是太难找了。

不但如此，
它还是个让我充满回忆的地方。
记得小时候每逢放假爸爸都会载我们回去。
可算是我们的第二个家了。
不过随着时间的流逝，
许多东西也有所改变，
大家都长大了，
有些人也不在了，
各自忙各自的，
要回去还有点难了。
好遗憾。

还是说些开心的。
那时考完O水准的我也回昔加末住了一段时间。
算是我人生其中最开心的假期。
那时回去时还是在旧家住的。
最印象深刻的还是那碗马铃薯汤。
因为里面竟然有一条小虫，
而且，堂弟差点把它当成葱油喝下去！
好险哦！哈哈。
我也是在那个时候学会骑脚踏车的，
刚学会不久的我还被狗追了呢 ><"
辛好没怎么样，
只是弄得整身是泥罢了。
哈哈。

每个人的回忆当然多咯，
但是好的回忆能有几个？
可是这个小小的地方就让我拥有了好多好多...

又是吃！

2008-06-09T20:59:00.006+08:00

今天又和娴姐去shopping了。
谁是娴姐？
当然是我妹咯！
她朋友都叫她娴姐。
哈哈。

我们去了Bishan Junction 8。
娴姐买了件B.U.M equips的衣服，
我则在Sameul & Kevin买了件T-shirt。
总算，两人都有了收获 =D

购完物当然就是吃咯！
原本想去MOS Burger吃的，
好久没去了，
不过太多人，
不但没位还很吵，
有位都吃不下了。
所以我们就去了Cafe Cartel吃。
不会很多人，
环境又很好。=)

我们order了两个set lunch。
一个是Mixed Grill,
另一个是Spaghetti with Black Pepper Fish。
Set lunch 附有
drink,
free flow bread,
soup of the day,
和
dessert of the day!
哇，这么多！

我们当然就没吃bread咯。
吃了bread怎么还吃得下嘛。
我们要了ice peach tea（很好喝哦）,
soup of the day是cream of mushroom（我的最爱），
dessert是walls的Mini Poppers。
Mixed Grill好的真是没话讲（有pork chop和bbq chicken chop）。
Spaghetti也很不错，很特别。
总之，就是好就对了。=P

Cafe Cartel...

Ice Peach Tea

Soup of the Day: Cream of Mushroom

Main Course: Spaghetti

Main Course: Mixed Grill

Dessert: Mini Poppers

Take wad Pic?

真的有那么好吃吗？

你拍我拍大家拍！

可爱哦！

2008-06-07T02:41:00.001+08:00

蓝天白云雀双飞，静池清水蜓双追。
此处佳境何寻有，唯独伊人伴身随。

肥猪宴

2008-06-04T23:26:00.003+08:00

今天终于盼到妹妹和表姐有空陪我出门了!
所以我们这三只猪就去了Bugis逛逛。
幸亏今天是星期三所以街上还不算很多人。
到了Parco，
第一件事就是买杯我最爱的Bubble Tea!
Haiz,
还真是不能一天没了它。

随便在Parco走走，
等待表姐的到来。
又迟到了><"
还好我今天的心情还算不错。
Haha..
今天约表姐的目的是一起去看看新出的Tamagochi Version5
有点觉得返老还童！
也许是好奇心作祟吧，
很好奇新的和旧的有什么不一样。
只可惜，太贵了。
与其买它，我不如买我另外看上的vest好了。
不过我也没买，
Hahx..
我是有点莫名其妙啦。
不过人家当时只有心情买Tamagochi嘛。
LOLX

算了，
还是民以食为天！
我每次出门都不过是为了个吃字。
肥猪宴就定在了Seoul Garden。
幸亏没什么人，
可以选自己心意的位。
我们就在那儿慢慢吃，慢慢聊。
吃完后，大概是7pm了。

我们又开始逛街。
我和妹妹，表姐的taste其实很不一样，
所以很不适合一起逛街。
虽然三人都是看看衣服啦，看看鞋啦。
但是
妹妹看的是长裙(hmm..那种带点性感又有点可爱型的)，
还有那种超高的高跟鞋。
表姐虽然看的也是裙和鞋，
不过是那种淑女类型的，和妹妹看的那种恰好是相反。
我呢，
当然是看T-shirt，裤子啦。
鞋子当然就不是高跟鞋咯！我看的是sneakers或者拖鞋，boots也行。
中途我竟然还抛下她们俩去了趟Kinokuniya！
妹妹和表姐还能勉强去一样的店逛逛，
我和她们混在一起，
Hahx
有点out of place了 ><"

妹妹的目的是买鞋，
看她的样子今天没买到恐怕今晚就睡不着了。
但是，她看的鞋确实有点恐怖。
不是Americaya的，就是Bonia的。
而且，
还是PINK color 的！

达到目的的我，当然想回家咯。
看到妹妹选的粉红色的鞋，
看看鞋的高度，
再看看价钱，
自然地给了她那种“你不怕被妈咪杀，就敢敢买咯”的眼神。
还真成功地扫了她的兴。（当时我还有点满足感 =S）
不过听到她最后一句话时，
我顿时想昏过去。
“不如，明天我们到Orchard shopping。我要的东西Bugis什么都没有，standard drop了。看either Vivo还是Orchard才有我要的东西。”
天啊，
明天我一定要找借口不去！

逛街，花钱，吃喝玩乐俱全。
人生得以如此，还有何求。

都是玩具哦，可爱吧！

Seoul Garden...
几时请了新代言人啊?

开动咯！

婷姐，你不是淑女吗？何时开始学会动粗啦？我可没得罪你耶!

怎么都要和我拍啊？(你不要脸咯！谁稀罕！)

我的虾汤...

甜点

怎么变三碗啦?Magic!(哇!LAME)

还真会享受嘛

好像有个人在抢镜头耶

怎么会有两个疯子在这儿?来人!快把他们轰出去!

吃饱就吸油，真有效吗？没听说 ><”

肥猪合照!

新发型 ><"

2008-05-24T20:33:00.005+08:00

近来天气好热。
终于下定决心去剪头发，换发型。

不知道要剪短还是修修就好了，
所以就说
"我的头发不要太长也不要太短，
三个月后要能绑起来，
随便剪就好了，
反正我有戴帽子的习惯。"

剪了一回又洗了一次，
但还是觉得怪怪的，
所以又让他修多一回。
结果，剪着修着就变短了。
哈哈！

想当初，
中二的我才决定留长发，
那个时候还真是辛苦，
因为学校不许我们长发不绑，
还绑了两个辫子。

现在看看还在怀疑三个月后真的就能绑吗？

See the DIFF!

逃避不是办法

2008-05-21T13:24:00.001+08:00

世上种种事物早已有安排，
要发生的事总是会发生，
逃得了一时，逃不了一世。

逃避是解决不了问题的。
要勇于面对，勇敢克服，
即便还是失败了，
起码已尽了力，
一无遗憾。

人生亦如此。
当人生走到尽头时，
必须离开时就终得离开。
勉强留下，只会让自己更辛苦，让其他人更累。

即便是天下第一大人物或是个无名小卒，
即便还有很多东西还没办完，
即便这世上还有许多放不下心的事，
时辰到了终是到了。
即使你逃得过这关也未必逃得过下一关。

人生如此安排自有道理。
何必这样执著？
何必把自己弄得如此不堪？
不如留下美好回忆，
让后人留念，
也好让自己一路回味。

莫贪，莫强求，顺其自然吧！

2008-05-20T20:23:00.001+08:00

是你的终究还是你的，
不是你的强求也得不到。

是你的东西，
即使失去了，
迟早会得回，
不须急于一时。

不是你的东西，
即便是抢到手，
迟早也会失去，
贪反会失去更多。

GatHeRinG 番外

2008-05-17T23:59:00.004+08:00

During the gathering,
we chatted alot abt our sec sch days.
Abt:
where we sit in class,
who we sit with,
the 2/4 lemon tea(until now i still dunno y the name =P),
the bio pratical green peas (HK forgotten drawing it during bio prac lolx),
the argument we had with JH due to jus a small packet of tapioca chips hahx,
the days we said we want to go to Australia together but until now still haven,
the first camp in my life - sec 2 camp(so happy to be in the same grp as HK)
i tot abt my 2nd which shld be the last camp in my life - JC2 LEAP camp
(i dun like camp, i dun like to sweat, anything that makes me sweat i wun want to be involved ><")
how we hated band,
how we hated the band instructor who loves only ppl who bootlicked him,
how we hated the band teacher-in-charge, Ganesan(my sis say she left sch to join SEB le)
how we hated the band people ><"
and of course wad happen when we left band.
Both of us, HK and me happily joined Badminton and ODAC =D
I think we are just so clever to QUIT BAND! YEA!
and it's a choice that i will never regret!

Some of them actualy noe my artwork b4 knowing me!
It's so amazing! Hahx..
Art is something im proud of once,
but too bad,
i gave it up for something i dislike,
bcos i dun have a choice.
If i have another chance someday,
i will sure to cherish and give my best.

Actually, i dun really like sec sch days.
i dun like my sec sch days due to band.
and i still hate band!(but i still love music alot, joined band then due to music)
Luckily, i have my friends!
They brightened up my sec sch days =)
and i dun feel so bad abt the sec sch days anymore when i tink of my friends!
Friends Rocks! =D

GaTheRinG

2008-05-17T23:51:00.004+08:00

Today, had a secodary school class gathering.
Long time never see these people le.

Suppose to meet at Plaza Singapura first.
I reached PS mrt station 15mins earlier,
didnt see anyone there yet.
When I was on the escalator to PS,
I was spotted by XuZhan and WeiSheng who were travelling in the opp direction.
I followed them to X-zone, they had a game of Time Crisis.

At 5pm, we met HK, TingTing, John and Christopher.
Really missed HK and Ting2 and finally got a chance to meet =)
a pity JH and JM not coming.
Then we went Marks and Spencer together to meet other friends(Melissa, Clarice, etc).
Sort of funny for a group of us to gather in Marks and Spencer ><"

After which we walked to The Cathay together.
On the way MeiQing joined us.

We went to the Nihon Mura at Cathay for dinner.
Some friends are already there b4 we reached.
Total people arrive is abt 20 plus of us.

The sushi there, still ok lah.
HK say Sushi Teh better.
I'm so tempted to try it.
Actually I dun really like sushi,
but any food that's good,
I will LIKE =D

However, everything dun seem so successful.
The tables in Nihon Mura can only fit 4 to 5 people,
and so we are splitted into groups.
Everything was like a gathering for your sec sch gangs/clicks,
rather than a class gathering ><

Due to the fact that JH and JM not here,
my click looks more like NUS grp(with HK, Ting2, Janice - all frm NUS)
then come JingXuan =D
and so at least got some mix.

After dinner, we just stick with our click.
There's nothing to shop at the new Cathay.
So we are so bored that we jus sit here and there(Adidas, Ben and Jerry, the dunno wad bookstore, etc) and chat among ourselves.
In the end, some went for K,
Most of them went home,
left me and HK at PS.

Both of us shop ard PS for a while until abt 10.
Then we took train to Bishan where we parted.

2008-05-17T02:45:00.001+08:00

昨日之乐与君享，今日之悦谁人晓。
回首昨日无限好，只惜今日已非昨。

mY SpaGheTTi

2008-05-14T17:16:00.003+08:00

Mum didnt cook today =(
I seldom cook.
the things I noe how to cook are so limited.
I noe how to cook instant noodles, eggs and spaghetti.
so I anyhow cooked spaghetti!
Dun have prawns,
so replaced prawn with crab stick, lolx =P

双面事

2008-05-14T14:03:00.001+08:00

事事总有两面。

如刚出生一天的婴儿，
我们可说他多活了一天，
也能说他以一天的距离更接近死亡。

如半杯水，
我们可说盛满半杯水，
也能说只剩半杯水。

如一幅太阳画，
我们可说太阳正在升起，
也可说太阳将要落下。

可曾想过我们口中常说的坏人，
他真是坏人吗？
何谓怀？何谓好？
因为他做了违反你意识的事所以就算坏人了吗？
有没想过处处针对他的你其实在他眼里也是个坏人？
如果是这样，
究竟谁坏谁好？

坏人只是些因想得太悲而做了悲事的人。
没有人想做坏人，
只是环境恶劣，没人指导，而误入歧途。

事事总有两面。
往好的方面想吧！
这样做人会更轻松更加开心。
人生难得，
好好享受吧！